i’m so afraid that you’re always going to be a flirt or a cheater. i’m so afraid that you’ll never fully be mine. :’( you say you’ll wait, but i keep seeing you flirt with all these girls and since i’m not allowed to talk to you i can’t say anything about it. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I HATE IT.
you found someone else. i guess you just couldn’t wait.
time to move on from the last 6 years of my life.
i look at all these couples around me and how come it’s so easy for them? why do they get to be together? why do my parents like my brothers girlfriends? how come they like them even though my brother is having sex with them? how come i can’t just be with you? i miss you sooooo much. my parents found out we were sleeping together and now i’m not allowed to talk to or see you. it’s been about 2 months since i last saw you and it’s felt like forever. now, i understand what we did together was wrong, but that’s not completely what our relationship was about. i really do love you and i know you love me too. at shows i’m surrounded by couples. they walk around holding hands and kissing and hugging and hanging out with their friends. i want that with you! i want to be able to kiss you in front of my brothers and think nothing of it knowing they’re totally cool with it. i want to invite you to family events because you’re my significant other. i want my parents to say to us both it’s okay for us to be together. i want to hold your hand in front of my mom and dad and have them be happy with us being together. i miss you, babe! i just wish i could lay in your arms tonight. :(
i’m freaking out. i wish i trusted you! why did she have to go and tell my parents? everything was perfect! finally perfect! i guess this is a true test of if you love me or not. if you can’t wait until my parents give you their blessing then i’ll know you didn’t truly love me like you say you do. i hope you prove them all wrong. i seem to be falling apart. don’t worry though, i’m doing a good job at hiding it. no one will ever know i’m breaking. please, please, don’t let me down. don’t let us down. i really do love you…
i feel like i’m losing you and it scares me soooo much. i love you an unbelievable amount and this feeling is hurting me so much. i can’t handle the thought of you with another girl, loving another girl. when i’m with you everything is so perfect, but when we’re apart i just hurt. and i get scared. and now all you do is hang out with her and now she likes you. i appreciate you being honest with me, but if it’s a tempting situation to be around her then why do you continue to spend all your time with her? please, don’t leave me ‘cuz you have completely taken my heart…
why must you be so critical? i can’t stand it. you drive me crazy. and you treat me like i’m 12 years old and don’t know anything. every time you come around you lecture me on “you know who” like you know the whole story when you actually don’t know like anything. and i’m not going to tell you anything because you wouldn’t believe me or listen to me or understand me. you would just criticize me some more. i still don’t trust you and you don’t realize that and i don’t want you knowing that either. please don’t get in the way of my weekend. this is such an important weekend for me and my family. and my emotions are already weird without you making things worst. just stay out of my way.
i send you cute messages all the time because it makes me feel better. with us being apart and not being able to talk often i feel like you’re going to forget about me or give up on us being together. so, when i send you cute messages it makes me feel like we’re still something. i don’t want to lose you. i don’t know what i’d do. you mean the world to me and i wanna marry you someday. i’d do almost anything to have that life with you. i’m waiting for you. i hope you realize you really are the only one i want no matter what. no guy even compares to you.
i want the day to come when i’m moved out, have a good and steady income, nice transportation of my own. i’ll be sitting in my own apartment thinking to myself “what do i do with all this freedom?” i can go out with my OWN friends, not my brother and his friends, i can drink and not get condemned for it by everyone, i can stay out all night, or throw a party at my place, i can go to the club. it will be nice. but yet, i won’t live just for fun. i’ll either be in college or graduated from college. my apartment will be nice and clean. my car will always be taken care of. i’ll be a good friend. and i’ll stay close to my family. i’m happy now, and i’ll be happy then, too. i’m just tired of my brother and his friends, and not having my own life. it’s getting really annoying. i just want to have a good night and not have to worry or think about anything. is that to hard to ask for?
you’re stupid.
you better not go there. especially after everything you’ve told me.
